It’s raining and I’m over hospitals

I have been so busy with life the past few months that I haven’t had a chance to sit down and blog it out. I have time now.

Not in way I had hoped though. Peyton is spending his eighth night in hospital. Or Suckstipal as I’ve renamed it. The nurses are amazing and we are really being looked after it just sucks that we can’t be at home. It’s messing with our family dynamic. We just want to all be at home together again.

Little man is fighting off a muscle infection which apparently is just bad luck to get. He has a PICC line inserted in his arm that goes all the way into his chest. Dean and I learnt how to administer his antibiotics today. Dean is way more comfortable with it than I am. I’m worried I will screw it up once we get him home.

The past two months have been crap healthwise for us! Dean slipped his L5 disc in his back causing a prolapse and his hydrocortisone injections haven’t worked so he will need keyhole surgery. The only silver lining to that is that while he is off work getting ACC he has been able to watch Eli and Hunter and take shifts up at the hospital to give me a break.

Hunter’s eczema has been really bad – he is so allergic to dustmites at his kindergarten he is not allowed to physically sit on the carpet until it’s replaced.

Boo Boo has been good. He has really grown up this past month leading up to his second birthday/turning two and the few weeks after. His speech is amazing and he blows us all away with how smart he is. He moved into his big boy bed with no attachment issues to the cot.

Baby stuff is vanishing from our house as we pass it on to friends beginning their parenthod journey. I’ve packed away the things I’m to attached to in hopes I can bring them out for my grandchildren one day on the DISTANT future.

It’s raining but the rain is peaceful. Peyton asked to fall asleep to ‘Count on me’ by Bruno Mars but he loves it to much to fall asleep to it. “I need a sleepy song Mummy please.” So I put on the hauntingly beautiful “Safe and Sound” from The Hunger Games. Got to get my Swifty music in some how!

We have been showered in gifts for Peyton and meals from our rocking Crossfit family. I highly doubt we’d get this amount of support from an ordinary gym. This is what we love about Crossfit – the community of like minded people.

As much as I am over the hospital I am sooooo grateful that it is just a muscle infection. He will get better. We can fix this. We can take him home.

Those first couple of days when he was fighting fevers and they had no known cause for the pain in his leg I reached ultimate states of panic while keeping a calm demeanour on the outside. They wanted to do an MRI. Cancer, shit shit he’s going to have cancer. Dean’s family history isn’t fantastic with cancer so this is where my mind immediately went. And after doing a hell of a lot of reading on childhood cancers and families suffering through it thanks to stumbling across ROCKSTAR RONAN, I knew all to well how quickly happy families were destroyed.

I am forever grateful that it wasn’t and I pray it never is for us.

Right that’s enough rambling from me tonight. I’m going to go fall asleep to the sound of the rain outside my window.

Hopefully we will be able to get home tomorrow.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEYTON! (AND HAPPY STARWARS DAY!)

Today my first baby is six years old.

I stayed up until 12.30am finishing off his birthday cake and cleaning the kitchen.

He was up just after 6am – he was very quiet out in the lounge/kitchen. I poked my head around the corner and he had his head in the fridge checking on his cake. He does this every year – it is the first thing he does on his birthday. He is so cute.

“Morning birthday boy.” I whisper through the darkness.

“Mummy you made my chewbacca cake…. I LIKE IT!!!!” then he jumped up like a koala and hung off me in a hugging embrace.

He came and hopped into our bed while we waited for his little brothers to wake up. Got bored of that and was too excited so he went and watched Lego Star Wars. Pretty soon Boo and Hunter were awake and he opened his presents (starwars tee, star wars puzzle, angry birds chocolate, dinosaur books and his own little point and shoot camera) then it was the mad rush to get ready for saturday morning sport

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After his rugby game he handed out lollipops to all his team mates, enjoyed a sausage back at the clubrooms then it was on to Crossfit. He handed out more lollipops there and his awesome coaches had made today’s class birthday themed. He did his birthday burpees with his class mates and got to pick the game at the end of class.

Home for lunch and naps (he insisted he wasn’t tired but after laying with him and reading him his new dinosaur book he announced he was tired and he was out to it pretty quick and so was I!)

We dropped Eli off to Dean’s parents and picked up Peyton’s friend Cade and headed off to Jungle Mini Golf. Thank goodness we live in a city that has heaps of indoor activities available as it was bucketing down by the afternoon. The three boys had an awesome time playing golf and really starting getting the hang of it towards the end. They had been playing it a bit like hockey and didn’t understand that the less you hit the ball the better your score. “I hit it 8 times! I’m the winner!”

We stopped off at the fish n chip shop to pick up dinner for the kids and extra hot chips for the adults to snack on. Cade’s family joined us along with my brother (who after my spaz out the other day apologised for being a half arsed uncle and made the effort and Peyton was so happy to see him!), Dean’s parents and brother. Our next guests were welcomed and were a lovely surprise – Coach Aaron and Coach Jo! Peyton was so happy. Then I got a text from Coach Carli to see if we were still celebrating and so we waited for Carli and Cliff to arrive and then we did the cake.

Our lounge was covered in star wars and angry birds toys and ninja turtles and our house was filled with love for our little man.

It is amazing how people that have only been in our lives a short time feel more like family than most of our real family. Truly blessed we are to have such wonderful new friends in our lives.

Photos to come as I haven’t uploaded any yet!

(also Happy Star Wars Day Rockstar Ronan and FU Cancer xx)